I can’t picture anyone daydreaming about me. I can’t picture someone thinking about me when they’re laying in bed before they fall asleep. I can’t picture anyone telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I hugged them, or even just because I made eye contact with them. I can’t picture someone smiling because my name lit up their phone. I just can’t.
hobbies: reenacting the lion king with my cat
My triggers are my anxiety attacks…. worrying about not being wanted
The (not real) voices in my head that beat me down and any positive thoughts I have or ever have. I start off happy and end up sad.
Anything can be my trigger
A picture can bring back memories
A ring tone
I connect things to different parts of my life… The problem with that is when people leave my life I’m left with the memories that give me chills. That makes me worry too much. That gives me anxiety.
Wondering where that person is now and what they’re doing or if they’re thinking about me too. That hurts the most because I know how replaceable I am and I know I’m the only one doing the missing for the past relationship I had.
My heart breaks and all I want to do is die… it’s hard for me to leave people because I’ve grown so attached to them that I’ll think about them even when they’re gone, and it hurts me so bad that I cut myself over it. And no one understands
1) Being able to piss myself off with just my thoughts.
2) Being able to clean cuts in record time.
3) Making people leave.
4) Fucking everything up.
5) Being the most unlovable person in the world.
6) Wasting hours scrolling through Tumblr blogs.
7) Faking a smile.
8) Blowing stuff out of proportion.
IT SOUNDS LIKE HE’S IN THE BOTTOM OF HELL SCREAMING CHOCOLATE
I HAVE HEARD HELL.
I’ll never be the same
do you think he knows
What I find really astonishing isn’t that a giant land snail managed to earn a doctorate, but that he managed to land a national TV spot despite displaying this kind of egregious, disrespectful behaviour towards his co-host.
it got better